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Saturday, November 21, 2009
Hey there boobheads...long time no see...ERS has been fine, with ppl fainting out during heat n humidity...my buddy went crazy n screamed at me during tt ordeal as the heat was getting to our heads...but after tt we were ok...It seems i have a new trustable partner and friend in my buddy, Zaidi...always there to help each other out till one of the sergeant thinks tt were gay...hahahaha...well, this boobhead has a girlfriend, so tts nt happening, he even offered to introduce me to his gf's sister who is actually quite hot fer a malaysian girl...other than tt, we make a great team...he always wake me up when i overslept, keeps complaining tt i sleep 2 mins after getting onto the bed cause it makes him look like a retard talking to the wall...n he's the 1st dude who said" gerek ar ada buddy gila2 mcm kau..klau tk mendak dlm camp" to me...haha... On the other hand, i kinda wonder hw everyone is doing right nw...i havnt been contacting the nurses fer quite some time...the only ones i've been in contact with are probably arif n yesmint...all i cld do was read their blogs which mostly remain unupdated..except yest n mirza's...n mirza's is mostly abt camp stuff n yest's is probably the only one i like to read cause somehw it kinda makes me reflect back on my own life lol...at times it seems like im a superstupider n uglier male version of her...other than tt, i wonder when is the next time we all gather tgt n have dinner or smth...it wld be nice to see them again... Guess tts all, gotta go sleep or smth...cya boobheads Labels: Where did ya'll go to? PuNKRoCKBoi at 10:11 AM | Comment
Sunday, November 01, 2009
Fer some reason i cldnt stop smiling...i went up to the roof to smoke n clear my mind abit...there i made some decisions for the future tt i plan to carry out starting tml...the reason i cldnt stop smiling was cause a dream of the future i had frm bfore kept flashing in my mind...well, its nt clear tt it will come true but a guy cn dream rite? haha...its time i change a lil...for once i wanna kick out this lazy habit of mine...its time to train and grow stronger both physically n mentally...my six packs are starting to show a little weee bit due to the inverted sit ups i did at the gym back at camp..although i have to admit i was doing it juz to impress someone...im gonna continue to pray tt i get thru this 6 months course...maybe ill even think of signing on if i were to make it thru...then im gonna try to cut down n eventually quit smoking by the time i get to the fire station/bcome cda instructor... 1stly, i gotta slap myself awake n get over this depressed feeling i've been having fer quite some time now...its juz not worthed it...its time i loved myself more...now im focusing on the goal to bcome a man...it may sound crappy but even i have dreams to lead a simple life, get my own hse, be independent, get a stable job n get married to a lovely wife...although the last part doesnt really seem tt important...so im gonna work hard to get all those...but NS comes 1st..n im grateful to god fer putting me in this ERS course...it gives me another path towards a great stable job... Olright boobheads, think im gonna go hit the hay nw...gt a whole day of guard duty ahead...cant wait to see wat funny things lies ahead....Mucho love, Le Nachos... Labels: Smile fer the future... PuNKRoCKBoi at 12:41 AM | Comment
Friday, October 30, 2009
BA week passed by horribly...1st 3 days of BA was ok...we were made to wear tt scuba diving tank and made to crawl thru the squeezy maze like a hanster...tt was quite fun actually...then came 4th day...BAPT(breathing apparatus proficiency test)...we went thru an obstacle tt has nv been practised...don our suits in 1 mins 15 secs n then we had to undergo 4 trials, impact test, treadmill, endless ladder and bicycle...donning suits was just putting on winter clothing and scuba diving tank with mask n helmets...sounds easy but it isnt..i passed only after 3 tries..then came the trial...i did the treadmill 1st...then got fucked by the sergeant cause i din rest bfore doing the impact machine thingy...u were supposed to rest 2 mins after each station but i juz chionged in...cause i felt i cld...then came endless ladder...the nightmare begins...so tiring...but i cld do it...then i asked hw many metres more to climb to get a b grade...he thought i wanted to stop at b...so while climbing, he suddenly stopped the ladder machine...my momentum was going up n i suddenly had to stop n tt made me vomit...zZz...dammit, i cld have gone fer A grade...bcause of tt i failed my BAPT...then after tt i felt sick all the way till now...then there's guard duty on sunday, so i have to book in early...haiz...tml's gonna be another boring wasted weekend... During tt week, sergeant was telling us hw it was in the old times...n hw u cld get 1k push ups juz as easy as tt...i wanna go thru tt times...im weak nw, but im training to get to tt level...wat we're going thru nw is juz plain crap ani sec schooler cld do...even though its tough, there are tougher times we shd be going thru..n im gonna train fer tt n come out a man...tts wat im aiming for nw...ouh btw, there was a slideshow juz nw during lecture...a person who signs on ERS cn get up to 2k+ pay..n it cn go up to 3k tt EASILY...yep...tts my only motivation fer nw...n nw its time to go lepak wit sky...i hope he's done eating nw...stupid fuck...after tt its rest, hope tt i recover soon n back to camp...haiz... Labels: Im rotting slowly... PuNKRoCKBoi at 10:03 PM | Comment
Sunday, October 25, 2009
BA week...starts tml...booking in in 4 hrs...im gonna go thru a fucken tough week without ani motivation other than the ones provided my sectionmates...im expecting to end up unconsciously doing all the tough job...i cn see it nw...5bx in bunker gear n BA set without even thinking of the pain...i onli hope i dont overdo it...once i get over it, im gonna come back to another boring weekend...haiz...feel so down... Met maz, ghaz hilda armelia rendy taufiq n a few others at al aza...then after tt went to lepak at bt pjg near maz hse till 3 am...was nice to see them again...maz is dark n botak...as all the other ns baldmen are...hopefully there'll be another meeting like tt soon...fee's chalet is to be skipped due to ns...its held on a weekday..zZz...aargh...hopefully someone makes weekend plans so tt the guys will be able to join in...then we cn see the others again... Right nw, i cant feel anithing animore...alls gone but a thread hanging on the edge...im desperately trying to hang on but things are juz going against me...for nw, im letting my blog do the hearing... Labels: Im slowly fading... PuNKRoCKBoi at 5:52 PM | Comment
Saturday, October 24, 2009
Back frm a tiring day of guard duty...had a cup of coffee in the morning so i cld stay awake fer nw...i spend last night fruitfully, listening to advice of a bunkmate Azlan..i really admire him cause he has a strong mentality...juz like zira...n nw, i want to, really want to follow in their footsteps...im trying to kill it all away...emotions, devil's brain washing and temptations...juz until tt right person comes along n set it straight...im beginning to wonder again...whether my current path is right..and tt talk with Azlan really made me doubt it is the right way...wat i nd is assurance...and my current path really doesnt give me tt...he told me, its gonna be difficult, but at the end of the road is smth more rewarding...abandoning tt path is indeed difficult...and i wont let it go so easily as i fought hard to walk that distance...ill juz nd more time to see...in tt time, if there's nth to change, there's no other hand to clap...then ill juz have to walk down tt lonely path again...its not worth it if im fighting alone to keep us something so dear...for once i wanna sit back n watch hw this turns out...n see if all the effort i put in so far was all wasted... Labels: So what are u waiting for? PuNKRoCKBoi at 9:54 AM | Comment
Sunday, October 18, 2009
It feels different, to the point there was a stripe of hesitation covering it...nxt week is a true test of mental strength, if it happens again...i realise tt these past few weeks im growing closer to one, and neglecting the other...but it doesnt seem worthed it...isnt this wat i wanted? bfore this i wanted it so bad i made a deal with him...but i broke tt deal twice in a row...n nw i see it left with tt sliver of hope...i intend to keep tt deal...but my mind wont help me thru it...heart of an angel n mind of a devil...tts y nxt week, i wanna try n see this thru if i get the chance...the true test of mental strength..ill nd all the luck in the world for tt.. Labels: i promise PuNKRoCKBoi at 2:18 PM | Comment
Friday, October 16, 2009
This week, 1 poor guy gt admitted to the ICU...yea..here's the scoop...this guy saiful was in my section...we had to do this hose extension exercise...the tough part was nt the exercise...the tough part is tt we were all already shagged frm the previous exercises and we were in our bunker gear under hot sun...nw saiful n me were supposed to do this exercise tgt in timing...45 secs...sgt(sergeant) rizal, the most fucktup sergeant of the lot who sent 1 guy to the hospital the previous week was in charge...so we did it but our timing was 1 min so we had to do it again..zZz...2nd time was fucking tiring...was at our limit...then this time i did it in 56 secs...i was faster than saiful but still both had to do again...man it felt so fucking tiring...but somehw i did it in 31 secs...(rizal probably cheated the timing bforehand) but saiful who was so tired was too slow...after making up the hose n all, we stood at the back...then one of the enciks (some officer guy) shouted "eh are u ok or nt?" he was speaking to saiful...saiful was wobbling ard saying ok...definitely smth wrg there...rizal still cn go say" eh dun action la"..cb...nxt thing u know the guy went into the training shed n fell there..was conscious but had to be stretchered off to the MO(medical officer) i heard frm the light duty ppl tt he was unconscious when he reached the MO and he cldnt control his bowels, so he shit all over...in the end he was send to the ICU and was under life support...zZz....fuck sia...thinking back, it cld have been me...cause i went thru the exact same thing...n tt guy passed out frm the fit squad somemore...haiz...guess rizal is gonna have to face the poor dude's parents...
On another note, i suddenly feel i've lost motivation for ERS...nt bcause of the incident but bcause i kinda feel i've lost my reason to carry on...with confusing bullcrap running thru my mind, i feel i nd to hang on...things feel different...when i held it in my hands, i felt like i cld cry a thousand tears and it felt like i cld never let it go, for its a prayer tt has been answered...but it feels totally different...what does it mean...i am so confused... Labels: Answers are needed once again PuNKRoCKBoi at 7:06 PM | Comment
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.:Its Who I aM:. 
Nicks:Ace, Punkrockboi, Le, Kai, Boi Ongbak Ngee Ann Poly, Bukit View Sec, Keming primary Came to tis cruel world on 22 July 1989 Thinks he's a ninja destined to save the world from an evil koala bear Cant stop chewing on his handphone Still thinks tat the moon is made of cheese Daydreams alot, so dun get angry if he's nt paying attention Overall, he's a happy kid doing wat he does best, watever tat is
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